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I never know how to start these things, and am currently even more self-conscious than usual about it, because I have been taking this literacy studies class, because apparently I decided I really needed another reason to be twitchy about my writing. That, or it was a required course to graduate. One of those.

I am doing some things that feel pretty significant right now. One of those is applying for jobs, the non-service industry kind of jobs that actually give a shit about my degree. The other is starting a draft of a fic for wave three of Bandom Big Bang.

I am going to say that I am being pretty successful in both of those things, and here are the reasons why: I am operating under the entirely non-logic-based assumption that whether or not I get hired is largely to do with how many places I apply, rather than how qualified I am or am not for any of the positions I apply for. Quantity, not quality, people. The more places that reject me, the more likely it becomes that the next place I apply to will hire me, right? This is a comforting way of thinking mostly because, as it transpires, I am not actually qualified for much of anything, except for possibly writing for alumni magazines.

I have also taken to cutting myself off from sending out applications at the point where my cover letters start to get too effusive and over-enthusiastic, because I do not actually want to frighten people.

I'm also, this one in the realm of BBB, counting my endeavors a success because I'm not trying to force myself to deal with a plot-plot, what I'm writing is much like what I always write--characters having feelings, and conversations about those feelings, and not much else. I won't hold it against any of you if that doesn't sound particularly enticing to read. I'm having fun.

(I will probably try to come up with a more dynamic summary to post for BBB, though)

([personal profile] zeenell seems to be of the opinion that it's cool that I'm basically planning on writing 10k of gen domesticity fic. This is why people have friends, right? So they can be reassured about their bad ideas?)

Anyway. Hi there, whoever's reading. I hope everything is going well. <3

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Ao3 hit count meme

1) Chemical Reactions (New Girl, 2011)
2) welcome home (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
3) furtive little feelings (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
4) I fought the law (and the law won) (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
5) The One Where Cobra Starship Have Really Bad Boundaries (Bandom/Cobras, 2011)
6) All The Friends You Need (Bandom/TAI..., 2011)
7) Go West, Young Man (The Newsroom, 2012)
8) When The Smoke Cleared (Bandom/panic, tyv, 2012)
9) See You in Another Life (Shameless (US), 2012)
10) Waiting for the Opportune Moment (Bandom/The Like, 2012)

Initial thoughts: well, yeah, those little Agents of SHIELD ficlets really blew up more than I was expecting. Big fandoms, man. The New Girl one was for yuletide when the show had first come out, so that makes sense. And yeah, it also makes sense that the rest is mostly bandom.

I am kind of surprised that those two little random, TV show character study ficlets snuck. They're both for shows I've been thinking about trying to write in for real, one of these days, so maybe that's a sign. Especially Shameless. The last season tore my heart out and stomped around on it repeatedly.

It's kind of a fun surprise to see that The Like fic creep in at the end, there--I'm still pretty fond of that one.

And okay, yeah, it's obvious that the last two years have been a pretty bad time for me and getting things written. Hopefully that'll start to change after I graduate.

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Had a bit of a Boston jaunt for spring break the past couple of days, which was pretty fantabulous. While I was there, I saw The Winter Soldier twice, two days in a row. Needless to say, I was pretty jazzed about it, and walked out of the theater wanting to talk to all of you smart people about it.

Winter Soldier spoilers under the cut.Collapse )

There are lots of other things I'd like to talk about, too—Nell and I had a pretty thorough post-mortem at a diner after we watched to movie the second time, and she took notes from that conversation, so maybe she’ll post those? Or we can just chat in comments about other things, I’m not feeling quite coherent yet about anything else.

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"warm heart, we spin slowly from view"

Hi guys. Long time no type.

I think I have been a little bit sadder than I knew this winter, but that's okay, because the reason I know now is that it's starting to be spring and I feel like I'm thawing too, so, you know, that's cool.

It looks like I'm actually going to graduate in a couple of months, so there's that, too. Five years isn't that long, especially compared to a lot of people I meet these days, but it's felt like a little bit of a schlep, three schools in five years, and honestly, there were moments when I wasn't sure I was going to get to this moment, where I feel like I can say that, so that's kind of significant.

I don't know exactly what I'm going to do next, but I think the first step is to move to a different town (probably Boston) and locate some form of gainful employment. After that, we'll see.

(My adviser said to me, the other day, "And soon, we should start talking about grad school," and I had this visceral um, no reaction. I'm not saying never, there are still plenty of things I want to learn, some of them even in an academic setting, but right now I am so tired. Even talking about thinking about applying gave me a stress rash.)

I've been listening to a lot of Roxy Music and Welcome to Night Vale, I'm reading Stevie Smith, I wrote this fic for no_tags: once, twice, three times a lady (z/tennessee), and the only part of bandom I feel particularly invested in at the moment is Z Berg's instagram and tumblr presence--she just continues to delight me. I don't know, maybe I'll get back into other parts soon. We'll see.

I've been watching some BBC shows--I highly recommend Fresh Meat. The first couple of episodes are pretty rocky, but I think it's episode five where something just clicks, I love it.

How are you guys? Hope everything's good. <3

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Rare Ship Swap letter


I'm sorry if there was only my placeholder up when you got my assignment, anon person I match on a fandom with! Hopefully my optional details were some help in the meantime.

Things I like generally: AUs! But also really meticulously close the canon fic. The ships that I've requested for this challenge are all non-canon, so stories that mention the way characters were feeling in the source material as a lead-up to get-together stories have a special place in my heart. I love get-together fic, but I also love established relationship stories, and feel strongly enough about all of the ships I've requested that I don't really need to be convinced that they would get together.

I'm honestly pretty not-picky, and a firm believer in "optional details are optional"--I'd much rather receive a story that you loved writing and feel really strongly about than one that meticulously follows my taste. Stories written with love are the best :).

I like stories about growth, about change, about characters learning how to grow and change together. I love stories where characters spend time with their significant other's family or their significant other's friends. I have a fondness for mild h/c, I like stories with strong friendships, stories where there are rational, civil conversations with exes that acknowledge that they used to care a lot about each other. I like stories involving cats. Roommate bonding is always fun.

Things I'm not big on: not in a great place for major character death now, cheating, rape, and I absolutely can't do stories involving brain damage, memory loss or amnesia, or mind-altering drugs.

My fic can be found here and some stories I love can be found here. This journal is pretty new, but feel free to dig around here or at the LJ it links to, if you are so inclined.

Bend it Like Beckham, Jules/Jess

I'll have more general details in my letter, but I'd basically love just about anything about these two. I love the idea of future fic, get together fic in college, get together fic after college, established relationship fic, stories where they both go pro but are on different teams and have to make the long distance thing work, stories where one of them goes pro but the other actually gets really into the subject she studies in college and pursues that, and they have to figure out a way to have a relationship that doesn't revolve around football, I love Jess and Tony's friendship, so I'd adore a story where they stay close or still talk despite the distance.

Basically, I'll love anything at all that involves these two together, though, working through their problems and coming out on the other side stronger than when they started, because if the movie proved one thing about their relationship to me, it was that they were capable of that.

I said most of it in my optional details above, but this is one of those fandoms where I could really go for either of them interacting with the other's family--either over the phone, or maybe when they're home for a holiday. Or adjusting to college in the US? Moving in to their first apartment? I really have nothing but ideas about these two, but I'm totally sure that anything you write will be great, so do what feels right!

Gilmore Girls, Rory/Paris

Again, though I'm up for anything, and always love a good AU, the thing that's in my head for these two is canon-compliant future fic, though beyond that I'm not too picky. I can totally see Paris going into politics and Rory covering her campaign, and sparks flying that way, but I can also see them meeting up again years later, on the heels of bad endings of relationships with other people, and just falling into bed with each other.

The truth is, as long as these two end up reasonably happy, or with the potential to become so (I can't stomach Rory Gilmore being unhappy too long, she reminds me too much of my little sister for that) I'll be happy.

(Don't let the sister comparison scare you off from writing porn, though--she doesn't remind me that much of my sister.)

I probably should have put this in the more general details, huh? I am always down for porn as long as it is attached to a plot, but I also read and write a lot of gen, and won't be disappointed if there is none. Fade-to-black is a tried and tested, age-old device, and I'm totally cool with it.

For these two, feel free to make it as wacky and/or heartwarming as the show. I think Rory and Paris could have a really interesting relationship dynamic, and also one that Lorelai would not quite get, though I'm sure she'd be understanding (Emily and Richard would probably be over the moon--Paris is definitely from the right kind of family).

On the other hand, if you wanted to go in an AU-ish direction (or even a canon one), I just had a flash of the two of them both teaching at a Chilton-like private school, so, you know, do with that what you will.

(Basically just have a ball writing it, mystery author, and I will have fun reading it.)

The Newsroom, Jim/Neal

Jim is so bad with women, seriously, he is so bad and offensive, and fucked up, in all the insidious little ways he'll never actually see, and because Sorkin is writing his female characters, they won't see it either.

He's got a really healthy relationship with Neal, though. Neal's the one he notices for ideas when he first arrives at ACN, Neal's the one he calls when he runs away from home to follow Romney on the campaign trail, and Neal's the one he thinks of in that mid-season episode where he sees the snatch of a news broadcast on tv from the campaign trail, and he doesn't even make a big thing of it, just mentions, "a buddy of mine," and moves on. Because Neal is in his thoughts. Casually. Constantly.

What am I saying, though? I don't need to convince you. If we matched on this pairing, mystery stranger, you already know all of this (and we should totally chat about it when this challenge is over, because I am hard pressed to find people to talk about my Jim/Neal love to). I guess there's so little written for this pairing that it doesn't matter too much to me what's in a story about them, just as long as it's written by someone as ridiculously invested in their ridiculous selves as me. Have fun with it!

Hmm, okay, tings I didn't put in my sign up--Neal is my favorite, in case that wasn't clear. Except for those couple of times when he's said gross, lech-ey (and, at one point, kind of date rape-ey) things, which I'm choosing to attribute to Sorkin not knowing how to write a guy who has a lot of sex without writing him creepy, so I'm interpreting the character based on what I read as the intention, rather than by those two or three scenes because shhhhh, it's a nicer place in my head that way, that's why.

Based on that, do you know what I would love to read? Bisexual, poly Neal who likes sex but only does relationships when he's really serious about them, and hasn't had time to go looking for one in years, because working at ACN kind of eats your life, and has been ignoring his blinding, obvious crush on Jim since Jim moved to New York.

That's just, you know, an idea. Really I can go for just about anything to do with these two, as long as it acknowledges their flaws, and maybe feels, like I do, that they'd mesh really well, flaws and all. Maybe something with them geeking out together? And I think Jim and Mac's relationship is super sweet, so anything to do with that would be cool as well.

Hope that helps! And thank you in advance for writing me a story!

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So fandom snowflake pretty much went out the window when classes started up again.

I'm taking a poetry workshop class--the advanced poetry workshop class at this school, which means my classmates all had to take two previous ones before getting to this one, which means I am at a loss to explain how I seem to be the most critical person in it.

I'm not actually that critical a person, I don't think (if I've ever beta-ed for you, you know that--I mostly just like to bounce up and down and talk about how things are great), but I don't see the point of a workshop that's just a mutual ego-stroking. If you think your work is perfect, or that you have nothing to learn from hearing other perspectives, why take a workshop at all? But they all seem afraid to make any comments at all because "Everybody is developing their own voice." Which is true, to a point, but ultimately not at all the issue, you know?

So we'll see how that goes. I got into a fight with this entitled jerk my first day that culminated in him telling me that I was punishing every writer who took their education seriously, which was, um, interesting. I asked him, "How am I punishing anyone by having opinions about my own education?" which shut him up pretty fucking fast. Idk, man. I'll be super glad to graduate, when that finally happens.

I have watched and have lots of feelings about both Orphan Black and Inside Llewyn Davis (which has a soundtrack to die for) so if you ever want to chat about either of those, you know where to find me. Some tumblr-er has compiled a Ryan Ross/Dan Keyes manifesto here, and while I think this person and I might disagree fundementally about what some of the dynamics of that relationship would look like, based on their commentary, there's some really delightful, squee-worthy stuff in there that I had never seen before.

Anyway, things are good-but-busy here, hope everything's great with you all, I'll try to get into a better rhythm of being in touch around here soon! <3

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nothing snowflakey today

it's raining here, but that's not why. I'm just so tired. My life is pretty well sorted out just now (which, for those of you playing along at home, is ALMOST NEVER TRUE, so I am writing it down as proof that it happens sometimes)--I cleaned the apartment, arranged advising for my thesis for my minor, and made a pretty spectacular dinner for old-roommate!bff, who came up for the night, if I do say so myself. I also got to work on-time and mostly succeeded at keeping at least a two-foot distance between me and creepy!boss. So I feel pretty accomplished, but also tired as fuck. Classes start the day after tomorrow and I feel utterly unready, and then I feel whiny for feeling so unready, which is no fun.

Plus, I think I'm getting anemic again. Which is probably why I'm so tired. I need to get on that shit, but I thought I was being so good.

So the snowflake challenge will have to wait another day, is my point. Time to wind this one down, kids. Just checking in to say hey.

I've had this song in my head a lot, lately:

(head out west, stake that claim, and forget everybody else's name)

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snowflake day 7

In your own space, create a fanwork. A drabble, a ficlet, a podfic, or an icon, art or meta or a rec list. A picspam. Something.

I had a couple of other things I wanted to get done for this one, but I'm weirdly tired tonight, so I took the easy way out and wrote the scene that got stuck in my head last week down.

old friends of the stars, 765 words of the conversation that happens directly after Ryan goes home after Let's begin at the beginning (we're lovers and we're losers). Is exactly as self-indulgent and emotionally fraught as the rest of the series, be warned.

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snowflake day 6

(I'm going to start this by saying that I know there are some comments floating around that people have made on these posts that I haven't replied to yet. Life has gotten weirdly busy right now, I don't even know why, but they all made me all kinds of giddy-happy, and I will be responding to them as soon as I can brain again. Until then, here's time for some flail and no real substance!)

In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.

I was having a hard time choosing what to talk about for this one, because that's the thing about fandom, isn't it? We are the people who let pieces of media change our lives in big, obvious, here-I-am-and-here-is-my-enthusiasm-and-never-shall-the-two-be-parted kinds of ways. So of course there are a lot of pieces of media that I could talk about as things that have changed my life.

Things only change your life when you connect to them, though. And you only connect to things based on who you are when you encounter them. So I'm going to talk about a tv show that has changed my life inasmuch as it has helped me solidify an understanding of who I already was when I encountered it.

It's not a secret that I love the show Shameless. The one that has my heart is the US version, which is currently starting its fourth season on Showtime. I know I have my Anglophile moments and also my moments of the-original-is-best media snobbery, but I also am American, and I also have the hugest soft spot in my heart for adaptations, and there's something about this Chicago-set show that gets under my skin the way the original UK version never did.

I was watching the first episode of the fourth season tonight with my roommate and one of my oldest best friends, both of whom love the show with the same kind of intensity that I do. They were talking about how Sheila, Karen's mother, was probably their favorite character after Lip, who they are both in love with, and I was trying to figure out, in my head, why I disagreed so very much.

For sure it's no comment on Joan Cusack's acting, which is fantastic, or the writing, which I love. I just don't like her character, and I realized, after a bit, that it's for the same reason that I love the show's main character, Fiona, with the same kind of intensity: Sheila has never succeeded in taking care of her people, while taking care of her people is all Fiona does.

I realize that this says more about my own values, and probably, to a certain degree, my own fucked-up priorities, than it does about either fictional woman. I know, intellectually, that I'm opposed to the idea that women need to be caregivers, and while they both take on a maternal role, which would suggest otherwise, I don't really think how I feel is about that, except maybe tangentially. It's about how I live my life by the idea that what you do, what you need to do, is that you pick your people, and then you do whatever you can to stick by them and do your best for them. You can't love everybody, you can't take care of the world, so you pick your people, and then you stand steady.

Maybe Fiona doesn't entirely have the luxury of choice, but who does, entirely? You live in the situation you live in, and she picks her brothers and sister again and again as she stays with them every day. She lets her parents go because they never held up their end of the deal. Sheila, on the other hand, can talk night and day about how much she loves her daughter, but she never ever sees her clearly, and when the chips are down, and Karen is at her most mangled, Sheila sends her off on a cross-country road trip alone with the sex addict husband who slept with her mother, so she can seek a miracle cure from some quack bearing wheat grass. And now I'm supposed to feel sorry she's lonely?

I have lots of other thoughts about the show, from all of the different ways Carl could grow up to the way I really really want to write queer!Mandy fic--there was a line of hers near the end of season three that I could totally see going there. The truth is, though, that when it comes right down to it, I mostly just adore Fiona Gallagher.

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snowflake day 8

So I'm planning on doing 6 and 7 after I do some laundry and some dishes tonight (we'll see how that goes) but I thought I'd cheat on the rules I have set for myself and skip forward to tonight's, partly as a way of feeling less behind, and partly because it sounds kind of nice right now. So!

In your own space, create a love meme for yourself. Let people tell you how amazing and awesome and loveable you really are.

Um, here's a love meme? The masterpost for everyone doing the snowflake challenge is here if you're curious, or you feel like sharing some more love. I haven't participated in one of these in a while because I remember them being pretty nerve-wracking, but it's such a sweet idea, so here I am again.

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